Here is a letter from each Emily and I.
Happy One Month Angelversary Son! I can’t believe it’s been a month since I last saw you. So much has happened since you left this world, and it makes daddy really excited. Remember how I told you the night I held you in the hospital that I would never let the world forget about you? Well, your mommy, daddy, your family, and all our friends are working very hard to make that happen. We were also thinking about starting this group, who will help families who went through what we did.
It’s been really tough without you around buddy. Daddy see’s all his friends who have babies, and sometimes daddy gets really jealous. But then daddy remembers that Jesus gave you to us for a very specific reason. See you had to go live with Jesus so that other people here on earth could hear about your story. Harrison, your story tells about the love of God, and the love between your mom and dad. So all of daddy’s friends who may be reading this should not feel bad, but be proud. All of us are God’s children, and we will all reunite with one another when the time is right.
This whole month without you has not been easy. But daddy has been reading alot of books (kind of like when daddy would read books to you while you were in mommy’s belly). These books have given daddy some knowledge (that’s the stuff you get when you learn things) about grieving, and it makes me feel better. The easiest way for daddy to feel better is to talk to God about everything. I have been sleeping better lately, because I also know that you are watching over me. I made you and Jesus a promise last night. I told you that I was going to make sure that you and Jesus would be proud of the way I acted, and the way I treated people. I am going to do my absolute best keep that promise. There will be times when daddy doesn’t keep that promise, and I will be ashamed of it. But luckily your heavenly father will forgive me, that’s why he died on the cross. He died so when mommy and daddy’s make mistakes, they can still get to heaven and see their children. When we all get to heaven, we will praise Jesus, and laugh and talk. I can’t wait for that day Harrison, but until it’s time, I have to stay on earth.
I love you so much, and miss you like none other. Happy 1 month angelversary Harrison,
Dear Baby Harry,
Hello my precious baby boy! I can’t believe it’s been a month since I first (but not last) saw your perfect little face. It pains me so much to write this letter because it makes me miss you even more than I already do. I think about you constantly and sometimes wished you were still in my belly. I miss feeling you practice your karate and seeing you move around a bunch when I ate ice cream. I know you would have had a sweet tooth just like your momma.
Harrison, your daddy and I are so incredibly proud of who you are and how much of an impact you have had on this earth. You have changed, not only me and daddy, but hundreds of others are inspired by your story, and I am honored to call you my son. You have taught us to trust in Jesus’ plan no matter what, which is sometimes easy to forget. You have taught us to not be afraid of witnessing to others about how amazing our God is. And you have taught us to be strong and never lose hope in what our future holds because everything happens for a reason.
It hurts so much to know that I will never be able to take you swimming or help you finger paint or even kiss your little toes, but I know once I get to heaven I’ll be able to do all of those things, and so much more! You have made heaven sound even more heavenly than it already was and I can’t wait to experience it with you, but until then, someone has to wash your daddy’s undies. Harrison, thank you for coming into my life and being my very own little guardian angel. I love you more than words can express. Be a good boy.